Well ladies and gentlemen, the weeks have come and gone sooooo fast...it's that time of the year once again to pull out the pencils and calculators (and kool-aid mix) and start another fun year at school. A lot of things happened this summer...some good...some bad.
I got screwed out of countless jobs -- that wasn't good...unless you are a fan of myself not working. I was not particularly fond of getting a job. I don't know why I never really liked the idea myself :)
At the ZA shack I cloned a computer. WAIT A SECOND I'M NOT GOING HERE!!!
But overall I think everyone had a very enjoyable time off to pursue different hobbies and interests. My hobby was simple: do nothing. That's right. I did nothing. At first I sorta felt bad about it, but after awhile I really felt kinda good. The only problem is the fact that it will be a fairly rigorous task to do any sort of work after being idle for 4 months straight. Such is life. I'll find solutions. I always do.
We also played lots of Diablo II and other various computer-related activities. We also played softball and music like the stars we are. We are all stars in my mind...and yours. We can be heroes -- for just one day.
And to quote Sean Connery "My day will come". Ok that wasn't quite exactly what he said but you get the picture. Enjoy life while you can: keep it nice and simple. And always look at the brighter side of things.
Oh -- and I also went on a 2-week vacation. I know I don't mention it much at all, and maybe that's because words cannot possibly describe the value of my experinces out there. It's true I didn't do anything too "spectacular"
but to say that I learned little is a complete understatement. I am very happy that my right-brain has matured to enjoy the intangibles that I received. Yay.
So...where do we go from here??? The topic has come up dozens of times in the past few weeks, and in a sense I really never developed a full answer.
That's probably because there's no 'definite' answer. What's the point of life if you have answers to everything? There's plenty of opportunity out there. TRY AND GRAB THE WORLD BY THE TAIL! But be realistic. As much as I'd like to -- I'm not gonna be some big rock star that deserves a song by Wesley Willis anytime soon. But that's fine. I want to continue my passions.
Maybe it still doesn't make any sense at all. Maybe life is senseless...but...that attitude just doesn't make sense. Maybe some of us are just soooo confused right now that we need to take a step 'backwards'
and re-assess our priorities. Why are we soooo afraid to do this? I've
seen a couple of my friends do this already, and have really made significant improvements. I want everyone to be happy. I want everyone to be satisfied. I want everyone to get a meaningful experience out of life.
If there was ever one thing my sister taught me...it was to make the most out of your experiences. I've tried and tried. At times I've succeded...in others I've failed. But I am finding that the more I try to make situations more positive -- the more I learn from them. Just like my vacation. I could have been miserable for 2 weeks. But I'm sure everyone doesn't want to hear about that again.
Let me be the first to say -- today's society wants to make everyone dissatisfied. We don't have the "feel-good" post-WWII baby boom attitude anymore. Instead we feel the need to get the biggest house and the biggest car and the most expensive clothes and if we don't then we're a failure. Or else we've been deprived. But then, something bigger and better comes along and we can't be satisfied with what we've got. In the meantime we leave behind everything that IS important to us (in reality, such as family, etc.) in an attempt to keep feeding our egos. It's like our society preaches that our main goal in life is to become bigger than Jesus. WAIT A SECOND -- WHAT DID WE LEARN IN THE BIBLE ABOUT THOSE WHO WANTED TO DO THIS??? Is society inherently evil? No. But we are easily tempted into forgetting our main purpose in life. If you don't know what that is, gimme a call and I can help discuss that with you.
I really feel bad for the generation directly following ours -- actually the
'87 -> group. A lot of them are growing up on Nintendo (although we're probably just as guilty of that one), pure GARBAGE TV, pure GARBAGE Music (well, not everything, but some of it is just very disheartening) I don't have a problem with my 11-year-old cousing listening to BSB or N'Sync. But when I see an Eminem CD in their posession I can only feel the dagger twist inside my stomach. And don't get me wrong -- I think that Eminem has some very REAL messages that mature audiences can relate to (actually they're probably very similar to what I'm writing here now except for the lack of profanity), BUT it definitely isn't appropriate to ANYONE of such a young age. Young kids don't need to be corrupted by this type of ****. They have a hard enough time already. I was fortunate enough to be raised without any of these disturbances. But seriously...we've got problems. I don't want to whine about them all day and NOT take action. I have waaaay too many family members that I love that I cannot just sit on my hands.
Although I have been doing a very small part, at least. I work with pre-teens and young teenagers everyday while I'm at the rink. I see a large number of them who have a large number of behavioral problems either with peers or authority. I try to do my part in acting as a good example for these kids; and many times I can do something to help settle conflicts between them. In a sense, I see myself as a "big brother" to a lot of the youngsters. In my 4 years of service at the rink, I believe I have gained an invaluable learning experience. At first I would just 'YELL' at everyone. All the kids were monsters. Now I see that a lot of them respect me. A lot. We joke around all the time. I try to see that everyone has a good time. If I see a lonely kid on the ice I'll try to communicate with them. Even a smile here and there is encouraging to a young person. I love kids. I would never want any harm to any one of them. And I feel that I can reach some of them in ways that no others may be able to.
While I write this -- I think if I want to change my college major. I don't really think I'll major in child psychology (but the idea persists).
Instead, I could always lean towards the philosphy/sociology major. Then of course there is religion (which I actually have a very large interest in, since it crosses over soooo many different topics). The possiblities seem endless! I just feel so fortunate that I can support myself through my computer knowledge to allow studies in other fields. I sometimes 'joke'
about getting 6 Ph.D's or something like that. Who knows...it may happen.
I need to find something I truly enjoy. I'll figure it out eventually.
Until then, I think I'll think about getting some sleep!
-Chris
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